1/21/2024

A driftwood root cluster and log on the Squamish River, 2023.

I’m finding myself longing for the summer already. It feels conflicted though, I do love the snow and winter. Last weekend I went out with Becky on Sunday morning and shot half a roll of film while walking with her on the beach. I loved the cold snow, ice creeping on the river’s edge, both being the river itself and the riverbank at the same time. I slowed myself down on finishing that roll, it’s actually a new film that I am hoping to have a variety of subjects on so that I can showcase it on Latency. In the afternoon I put on all the warm cycling kit I owned and rode up twice to ride flow trails that were wildly fun, if a little bit of a dodgy two wheeled bobsled track.

Anyway, it was pretty different from this Sunday. For one, I was exhausted. First week of filming on the show I’m working and we did a six day week. On one hand I’m more than happy for the sixth day pay rate, on the other hand I spent most of Sunday feeling like Death. Becky and I went to the river, but the warm snow slopped under my lazy legs, I was glad to see Becky prancing around the snow, shoving her nose through searching for isolated smells wafting through. We did another short hike later in the afternoon, where I went to spend time with her on trails (she loves trails) but I felt myself plod along. I definitely wasn’t inspired to be making photographs.

So it’s a mix bag. Really this short weekend was missing a bike ride. And some motivation to keep moving on. Ambition can be a real son of a bitch sometimes. I wanted to make progress on a few specific things this weekend but I felt glued to the couch when I couldn’t get out for a bike ride in lousy weather/trail conditions. I feel like there’s a mild two wolves eating each other situation with my full time job and my personal business and goals.